tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-40920051139120109682024-03-13T14:19:39.163-07:00A Forerunner's HeartTorrehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17297503361850543068noreply@blogger.comBlogger12125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4092005113912010968.post-73009241141767047722008-11-04T13:12:00.000-08:002008-11-04T13:47:05.509-08:00November 4thSo it just doesn't seem right, when I look at this whole thing that God did and how he made everything to work, it just doesn't seem right. I've been letting the Lord speak his happiness and approval and love over me this past few weeks and there is still so much of me that keeps wondering if he's really this good. Because if he is who he says he is then I'm so wounded with love, I will seriously have no other. But there are so many times when I try to step out in faith and walk with that confidence that he's smiling at me with love and the more I do it the easier it gets however my heart is still doubting that he's this good. I just want to cling on to this fact that when I'm bad I'm apart from him, that he's not with me when I'm thinking those thoughts or letting my heart run away with anger or self pitty. But he's not afraid of me, he's with me down here in my dirt and he's in my face the whole time. I just have the hardest time accepting that but his love offers me something I can't refuse so I can't turn away from it at all. I know I'm still loving him out of my selfish eros love too, but the thing is he's ok with that. Knowing that he's unlike everyone else just makes me want to know him more. He's such a mystery to me, I don't understand why someone would come and choose me when I clearly didn't choose him from the beginning. He knew how bent and out of shape I was from the very beginning, he knew there wasn't anything in my heart that had good in it, he knew how my nature would be to stray away from him but he wanted me still. I don't understand this but I'll take it because there isn't anything else in the world that offers this to me. I just can't seem to get away from the beauty of this picture of love, I want to stand overwhelmed constantly, I don't care if I seem so redundant or repetitive or if I seem like I don't understand or whatever, this love is too great to quit staring at and gazing upon. I was nothing and he chose me. Ezekiel 16 is a picture of what God did for Israel but can be compared to what he did for us.<br /><br />Ezekiel 16: 5 No one looked on you with pity or had compassion enough to do any of these things for you. Rather, you were thrown out into the open field, for on the day you were born you were despised.<br />Verse 8 Later I passed by you and when I looked at you and saw that you were old enough for love, I spread the corner of my garment over you and covered your nakedness. I gave you my solemn oath and entered into a covenant with you, declares the Sovereign Lord, and you became mine. I bathed you with water and washed the blood from you and put ointments on you. I clothed you with an embroidered dress and put leather sandals on you. I dressed you in fine linen and covered you with costly garments. I adorned you with jewelry, i put bracelets on your arms and a necklace around your neck, and I put a ring on your nose, earrings on your ears and a beautiful crown on your head. So you were adorned with gold and silver, your clothes were of fine linen and costly fabric and embroidered cloth. Your food was fine flour, honey and olive oil. You became very beautifl and rose to be a queen. And your fame spread among the nations on account of your beauty, because the splendor I had given you made your beauty perfect, declares the Sovereign Lord.<br /><br />I just think this is such a beautiful picture of what the Lord has done for us. Then I think of Hosea and how he had to persistently keep going after Gomer and that is exactly what the Lord has been doing in me, just persistently telling me that I am beautiful, that he is pleased with me, that he loves me.<br />It's such a beautiful mystery that the Lord chooses us as humans to enter into covenant with him to become one with him, it's truly amazing! His kingdom is truly the upside down one, because he goes after the broken and needy and poor and naked and chooses to attach himself to them and to glorify himself through them! Wow, I stand amazed.Torrehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17297503361850543068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4092005113912010968.post-46871586859280963062008-10-06T21:50:00.000-07:002008-10-06T22:06:59.680-07:00October 6thHello all you wonderful people who like to keep up with me!!! So I want to give a quick praise to the Lord for blessing me with $15oo a few weeks ago!! I was in a pinch for my tuition and I was basically going to have to cut classes in order to stay in FMA however the Lord was just so awesome in the way he came through for me in the nick of time. I just wanted to share with all of you the goodness of the Lord and how he is mighty to save, I want him to receive glory and honor for this, it is truly him keeping me here and it's by things like this that proves he wants me here!<br />Ok so now for my heart's journey over the last few weeks or I guess it's been a month! I feel like a totally new person in the Lord, um there's so much to explain and say so I am going to nab something I read along time ago that I saw in Nicole's notes on facebook. She is reading a book called Deep Unto Deep which I was required to read last year for school and now I want to go back and read it again because she posted something that explained exactly what is going on here in my little heart! So Nicole if you read this sorry for stealing kinda haha!<br /><br /><br />Oh Jesus, my Jesus,<br />True Friend of my heart, true Lover of my soul,<br />My heart is hurting. My soul is aching.<br />All that I have ever been,<br />All of my “beauties” falling, falling to the ground.<br />The goodness, the righteousness,<br />The good intentions and “right” motives,<br />Dropping layer by layer…<br />Leaving behind one that I do not even know or recognize…<br />The Lover of my love strips me<br />And as the hidden things are uncovered<br />And the exterior beauties taken,<br />I am not what I thought I was.<br />I know it is by Your hand that I am stripped.<br />Though it hurts immensely,<br />I recognize it as a Love deeper than my heart has ever known<br />Taking away what will not stand<br />That He might crown me with His true beauty<br />And clothe me in His robes.<br />Truly, I am not the one that I thought myself to be.<br />They ask me “then who is the one who comes?”<br />I look only to Your eyes and say,<br />“She is nothing but what He alone speaks her into being.<br />His words alone hold within the essence of who she is. She is His.<br />Please see only Him. He is the beautiful. He is the pure.”<br /><br />Ok if I try to expound on this, I won't be able to stop typing. So I just want to say one thing only. I am astounded, blown away, shocked, at the way the Lord loves me. The more he shows me his love the more I say, "What the heck is this???" Jesus is Holy, he is completely other than, there is NO other lover like him. Ok that's where I'm stopping! Can I just say that I love him so much! Your all in my prayers!!!Torrehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17297503361850543068noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4092005113912010968.post-18210984066891933032008-09-05T12:59:00.000-07:002008-09-05T13:35:24.143-07:00September 5thHey everyone! I'm really happy to be back in Kansas City, it was really hard leaving family and friends to come back but the Lord is good and gave me grace to choose to be here again! So the Lord quickly beckoned me to more time in the secret place once I got here and it's been a few weeks now and I've pretty much done nothing but fail at answering this call. So yesterday a girl on my team sang a passage, I tried to remember which one it was however the Lord used her to sing that to me so I was a little preoccupied! What she sang boiled down do how the Lord doesn't expect us to bring him anything more than our brokenness, and how he delights giving us beauty for ashes. It was such a breaking down point for me because I was trying so hard, I had just heard a message on the ten virgins in Matthew 25 and was so challenged to get oil (intimacy) and in my mind and heart I made a decision to go deeper and give more of myself to that place of intimacy with the Lord. However I keep failing at this and each time I try to pick myself back up and make myself presentable before the Lord and the whole time he just wants me to realize that I'm not perfect and he doesn't expect anything more and that he wants me to come to him in my imperfections and my brokenness. I do this little run through in my head where one day I'm like: "ok I'm gonna tackle this intimacy thing, I'm gonna dive in and go deep in the Lord and give my time to grow more in love with him" and then I forget, or grow lazy, or let other things get in the way of that. So then I get so frustrated at the thought of my failure and when I get to this point of frustration thats when the Lord wants me to say "Yes I'm a failure, I'm broken and weak and I need you" but I don't do that, instead I kick myself when I'm down and then when I feel like I've kicked myself enough I pull myself back up and try to convince myself that I can set out to do this intimacy thing again and then the process just goes on and on. So this happened for the first few weeks until yesterday when the Lord showed through his loving kindness that he wants me to come to him when I'm broken, not when I'm fixed up and have it together. It's such a prideful thing to think that I can choose to be such a good devoted Christian and that I can say that I do A,B, and C. No, what makes me desirable in the eyes of God is when I know I'm weak and broken and when I lean on him and his mercy through every single step of my walk with him. Oh my gosh, just even as I am writing this I struggle with pride in my heart wanting to think that I can walk it out on my own, that is not at all how it is supposed to be with him and I'm so glad too because I would be a mess and so would all of us! So I wanted to get this out there because I know it's just our nature as humans to want to try and look good for everyone else but I want to say that I'm broken, I fail at what the Lord is calling me to do here on a daily basis and that's ok because he can't bring me to completion when I'm trying to do that on my own. I hate that the enemy lies to us and tells us that were the only ones that are failing at things in our walk, and so I just wanted to use my blog as an opportunity to tear down that lie and lay bear before the eyes of God and others and be ok with doing that because He is the one that will cover me up and make bring me to completion and at the end of the day I will look like him and not myself because I was able to do that! Whew ok, that was fun! Love you all, hope the Lord blesses you through this!Torrehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17297503361850543068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4092005113912010968.post-54387976111063161672008-04-13T10:25:00.000-07:002008-04-13T10:57:59.871-07:00April 11th<span style="font-family: lucida grande;"><span style="font-family: arial;"></span><span style="font-size:100%;"> <span style="font-family: arial;">Hello everyone! So life here in Kansas City is going great! This last month has flown by but I feel like a lot has happened. After spring break I started working at Pier 1 about 20 hours a week and then getting full swing back into things after a two week break was kind of rough. We just finished our second to last GBF week of the semester and the last 3 weeks of classes were the toughest I've been through yet. I have 12 classes that I'm juggling on top of practicing 6 hours a week for voice and going to the prayer room 18 hours a week, oh ya and working 20 hours a week! So there was a while were I was just really overwhelmed and really going through a dry season, going to the prayer room was basically a time to do homework for me and I was getting really discouraged. I felt like I was being given all this information and teaching and I didn't have anytime to take it in and that was even more discouraging because I want to get all I can out of my education and this environment. During that time, I actually had the first desire to go home. My plan was to stay here this summer and do summer classes (which I just found out that isn't an option for me anymore) however, I started to feel a shift in my heart to want to pour myself out. The more and more I thought about it and prayed about it, I just began to see this inner desire to serve my church this summer in whatever way I can. So after about a few weeks of praying about this we had a prophesy lab in one of my classes one day at school. We basically just broke up into groups of 4 and each took turns praying and prophesying over each other. A quick side note with that : It is an awesome thing when the Holy Spirit just quiets all your feelings of inadequacy and decides to use you anyway, it's awesome because you know it's Him and not you! So when it became my turn for my group to pray and prophesy for me, there was a particular word given to me that just really confirmed my going home. The word was about how God has a wealth of treasure stored up in me and He wants to start using it and drawing from it to bless and edify others. To make a long story short that night in my small groups meeting, I basically got the same exact word again! So after that day I just knew in my heart that God wants to use me this summer to do exactly what he said, to bless and edify. Now my plans are to come home for the summer and just be a servant in anyway I can to my church. And throughout all of this, God has totally brought me out of that dry discouraging season my spirit is so much more alive, I now have a drive to finish these last few weeks of school with perseverance and strength! I have about a month of school left and I want to give it my best, please pray that God gives me grace to run hard and be diligent! Thank you all for your prayers for me and I am continuing to stand in faith and prayer for all of you too!<br /></span></span></span>Torrehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17297503361850543068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4092005113912010968.post-91630418757084311102008-03-04T11:26:00.000-08:002008-03-04T11:52:59.665-08:00March 4God has been doing alot of things in my heart lately, just revealing the deep rooted ugliness that is in my heart that he wants to expose and gut out. A lot of it stems from pride and there have been numerous times over these past few months that God pin points a thought and traces it back to a prideful attitude in my heart. I want to share with you something that happened a few weeks ago. For one of my classes we were required to interview a prophetic singer here on the base. A friend a I interviewed this guy who has been singing here for a few years and had a lot of great advice towards becoming a prophetic singer. At the end of our time with him, he was talking about how he is a verbal processor and asked my friend and I if we were the same and almost before I could even answer him, he turned to me and said, "I can tell your not a verbal processor, you think things through on the inside, you piece together your thoughts before you come out and say them!" With that he was encouraging me to take process things out loud, and how it is key in prophetic singing, that if I sit and think too much then I will miss the opportunity to bless the Lord and lead people into his presence. Well when I was done being all exposed and out in the open because he had just read my mail, I began to realize how much I play things safe. I let fear of failure cripple me into growing and learning. God is really challenging me to step out and let people see me grow, this has a lot to do with me singing here. While I really do want to develop that muscle of being alone before God with my talent, I also can't let that limit me to my growth process. It's like I wanted to hide during my awkward time and only come out when I knew I was good enough. Which again directly relates to pride, I don't anyone to see me fail because I am too prideful, but God longs for humility to take place in my life, that is how he is going to grow me up and it' s also the only way he can be glorified through my life. So a big inward battle and struggle is pinpionting thoughts of pride and renewing my mind to go low and live in humility before him and man. It's all apart of dying to my flesh, which I am learning more and more is something that is so hard to do. However I know that the more I keep on going low that the more he can be glorified and it also enables me to walk in righteousness with him! So I just thought I would be real and let people see my struggle, I know sometimes it can do good for more than just me. I'm praying that you all are getting full to the fullest measure of wisdom and revelation of him!Torrehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17297503361850543068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4092005113912010968.post-49853787981932766312008-02-09T16:08:00.000-08:002008-02-09T16:28:26.955-08:00Feb 9th<span style="font-family: courier new;"><span style="font-family: lucida grande;"><span style="font-family: georgia;"><span style="font-family: times new roman;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span style="font-family: verdana;">Hello all!!I know it's been a while since I've shared in my blog however, I had a very long break and then it took a while for me to get back into the swing of things here in Kansas City. This past week was Global Bridegroom Fast, it was a nice break from classes and a good reminder that I rely on the grace of God and not on my human flesh.<br />This semester looks very different for me compared to my first. I have 10 different classes this semester but all of them are only once a week so it's not as big of a load as it sounds. I have 5 classes that are strictly music and then 5 that are biblical. I have a class that is called Communing Prayer and the basics of it are building up a secret place in our walk with the Lord. It seems as though the first 3 weeks of school the Lord has been pressing in my heart that who I am in the secret needs to be who I am everywhere else. My hearts desire for this semester is to build up a time in the secret place where I am ministering to the Lord's heart by singing His word, by praying the word and from that place my outward walk will be established. I want who I am in the secret, when I'm with the Lord waiting on His presence to be the very same person who will be on a stage singing to the Lord and waiting on Him in front of people. What happens in m secret place will be the foundation of who I am in Him. All the teaching, all the preaching, all of the worship sets will only be built on top of what has been established in my secret place. I have set this as an important goal for this semester and have even pushed out any thoughts of joining a team until this is completely and habitually established in my life. A lot of this revelation has come by reading Secrets of the Secret Place by Bob Sorge. I encourage you to read this book, I'm not even through all of it yet but it has amazing truths that have really opened up my eyes to a lot of things about spending time in the secret place with the Lord.<br />I am continually praying for you all! Please let me know if there is anything I can come in agreement with you about! The Lord is good and his mercy endures forever, I want to see that truth be so present in all of your lives!<br /></span></span></span></span></span></span>Torrehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17297503361850543068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4092005113912010968.post-86984741767252255022007-12-02T19:07:00.000-08:002007-12-02T19:30:50.294-08:00Hi all!! Sorry it's been a while since I've put up a post, it's been a little busier for me since I started this last module. Which leads me to what I'm going to share! This module is called Eternal Glories of an Intercessor and I've been blown away ever since the first day of class. God has revealed so much to me about the way I should be praying and living. My biggest revelation is that Christ has seated us in the heavenly places with him, which means we can take that place even now. We have so much authority that Christ longs to give us if we just were dead to the world and alive in the spiritual realm. I have been so challenged to go up the the heavenly places and live and walk in the spiritual realm and take the authority that Christ has given me and call forth things that were not as thought they were! We get there by more revelation of Jesus, so my prayer has been asking God to give me revelation of who he is. In class we pray in the spirit every day and when we do, we are encouraged to focus on the scripture of Revelation 4, Jesus' throne room and the 24 elders and the creatures crying "holy, holy, holy". What is God like that they can't stop saying that??? I want to know! There has been so much more that God has been doing to my spirit through this class and among other things, my flesh wants to tell all because I have a "look at me" attitude but God has been pressing on my heart to go low and just pray about all this for a while. He will not give his glory to another and I want to be the last person to ever try and glory in my flesh. Right now I just now that God is moving, he's showing more and more the power of my prayers, strongholds are being torn down in lives right now and the Holy Spirit is getting ready to do something big in the hearts of my fellow classmates and others here at IHOP. JESUS IS COMING!! WOO HOO! I encourage all of you to get a hold of Corey Russel's cd, "Ancient Paths" it's rocked my world over these past few weeks and is still doing surgery on my heart! Please Please Please email me, write me, call me if there is anything you want prayer for, I want to agree with you before the father!! Have a wonderful week, BLESSINGS!! OH Merry Christmas get excited to celebrate such a beautiful gift!Torrehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17297503361850543068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4092005113912010968.post-25742586872641077572007-11-11T20:16:00.001-08:002007-11-11T20:38:56.205-08:00November 11thHello all! This week was GBF (Global Bridegroom Fast) and it flew by! I had nice week though, spending alot of extra time in the prayer room due to no classes is always nice. God really has been blessing me by giving me insight into my bible reading time. We are required to read our bibles here and for a while it was a checklist to check off for me, but lately it has been just the opposite. I have found myself taking a lot longer to get through my daily reading because the Lord pours so much out to me when I take the time to carefully read his word. So this week has been a time of quietness in my heart and spirit. I have hung out a lot less with people and have just spent some alone time and at first it was a little weird for me because I did it without deciding, it just sort of happened. But as I was reading my bible this week, the Lord confirmed this "quietness" in me. I was reading 1 Peter 3: 4,5 - Instead it should be that of your inner self the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit which is of great worth in God's sight. For this is the way the holy women of the past who put their hope in God used to make themselves beautiful. - I believe he gave this to me to show me this season that he wants me to go through and also to challenge me in the way I make myself beautiful. Beauty in our culture is such an outward thing but this verse starts off with the fact that it should be of our inner selves. I was just so challenged with the amount of time I spend a day making myself look beautiful compared to the amount of time I practice a gentle and quiet spirit before the Lord. So I have found that by having a quiet and gentle spirit has enabled my thoughts to come into order, I think so much more clearly! I guess that is just a side note, but a big thing I realized through this is it's not always coming before him with a mouthful of words to pray or spirit of boldness although those things are good. But sitting before the Lord in quietness and having a gentle spirit, I think allows for submission to take place in our lives, to the Lord and to others. Which submission is a whole other thing that the Lord has placed on my heart as well but I won't get into it hehe! I'm just excited to see the fruits of taking on a gentle and quiet spirit. Well you are all in my prayers and please let me know if there is anything I can bring before the Lord with you!Torrehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17297503361850543068noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4092005113912010968.post-83442906774239047302007-11-04T08:12:00.000-08:002007-11-04T08:29:49.834-08:00November 4thHey everyone! I hope you had a blessed week! This week was another great week for me. I finished up my last week of my Eschatology module and it went well. This week was one of the rather intense weeks as we learned about the judgments that God will pour out on the earth. As we came into a deeper understanding, I learned that these judgments are his acts of mercy on people as he tries to give them one last well actually several last chances to turn to him before they are cast into hell. This just really showed me how God is after us, and how far he will go to get us. I began to apply this to my own life, realizing that God will do everything it takes to bring me into perfection, even if I have to go through times that aren't so comfortable or pleasant, he will do what it takes to make me complete! Just like a parent disciplines their child to make them realize that a little pain now is nothing compared to alot of pain later on. The amazing thing is, that this realization brought me into a deeper understanding of his love for me. He literally won't relent until he as all of us, he's after me and won't quit molding me and making me! I am blessed to have a father that cares about me so much, he is the most consistent in all he does to make sure I get there. My heart came into a new reality of him this week, I loved every minute of it! There is a song that Misty Edwards sings that says: "Set your love as seal upon my heart, for there is love that is as strong as death, jealousy demanding as the grave, and many waters cannot quench this love" This is straight from Song of Solomon 8:6-7 and it shows us how intense the love God is for us! My prayer is that God takes all of us deeper in this relentless love he has for us!Torrehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17297503361850543068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4092005113912010968.post-14567536087803555642007-10-29T07:44:00.000-07:002007-10-29T08:19:07.703-07:00Hi all! I hope this last week was great for you. I had a great week, there are tons of things I could share but I think I will just pick the things that had the biggest impact on me! So basically this week God really just pounded on my spirit how valuable my thought life is. There is so much that I learned but I will start with last monday. I went to my briefing (a meeting before a prayer set) and our leader was talking about the quality of our hearts. She read a quote from a book which basically said that what is in our hearts right now about God is the most important thing about us. It really challenged me to separate the things I know about God from what is truly in my heart because in the end that is what he is going to be examining, not the things I can rattle off and tell you about God. I can't just listen or read things and just agree and then say I know God, it's has to be a heart experience. I know this truth but to say that what's in my heart is the most important thing about me, it really set me into a new perspective. Later on in the week, David Sliker, my Eschatology teacher talked about our thoughts and giving into thoughts that aren't good and how that immediately leads to sin. When we feed into certain thoughts we start a fire that can keep on burning for a lifetime if we don't choose to put it out. The best thing to do is not give into those thoughts at all, God gave us the ability to control what we think and when we do and choose not to give into fleshly thoughts we begin to step into righteousness. Later on in the week FMA had something called Fall Frenzy, where we just had a retreat/conference thing. Our speaker was Dr. Carol Thompson and really challenged me on my thought life all over again. God is calling us into righteousness and holiness but it's not just in outward actions, it's in our thoughts and our hearts. The best part of our Fall Frenzy was yesterday when a girl got up and spoke about how she felt the need to address this "perfect woman" that us girls have in our heads because of our culture. She called into light the way girls dress in vain, compare, judge, and think about themselves and one another all in the context of what the world says about us. She prayed over us and repented of all of those things and prayed that the heart of God would tell us who we are and put the right "perfect woman" in our hearts so that we could strive to be that woman. This was also another big challenging thing along with my thought life, because this is something all girls deal with, but I walked away knowing I have the power by the Holy Spirit to put to death thoughts that give into my flesh. Again God is driving me into holiness and this week he showed me the root of it all was my thoughts and keeping my thoughts holy and blameless before him. One of the things that Dr. Thompson said was that the mind releases the spirit and the spirit releases the mind, to be free in the spirit is to be free in the mind, a blockage in the mind is a blockage in the spirit and so ultimately you mind will control your spiritual level. That truth right there is causing me to examine my thoughts so much more than I have before, because what controls my thoughts controls me. I want my thoughts to be harnessed by the Holy Spirit and therefore I want to be controlled by the Holy Spirit. I love how God took a whole week to really get this in me and I am sure he will have to spend some more time getting this in me but I always get so overwhelmed how he does everything he can to make us holy as he is holy.<br />Alright, sorry if this was all over the place but there was so much to say and my computer is about to die and so I had little time to do this!! Please if there is anything I can pray for let me know. I hope you all have a great week, and keep seeking him with everything!Torrehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17297503361850543068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4092005113912010968.post-17415806063450303762007-10-21T19:34:00.000-07:002007-10-21T20:11:14.317-07:00October 21<span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;font-size:100%;" >So this post might be a bit longer than the others because I want to give a summary of my time here so far. First I would like to testify how amazing God's faithfulness is, when He calls you to do something, and you obey, He provides and does more than enough to make sure you get to the place He calls you! God overwhelmed me with his faithfulness in finances as I obeyed the call He has for me to come out here, I've been blessed to say the least!<br />He has also given me so much grace to make this move away from family and friends, I have been so blessed with an amazing family of friends here in Kansas City. It was like I was supposed to be here all the time, I fell right into this amazing group of friends and God has bound us together through times of prayer and worship with each other. It's just been amazing to see God move in all of our lives as we go after him.<br />Now for the tricky part, trying to give a summary of what God has done in my heart since I have been here. So for the first few weeks, God pretty much did surgery and removed so much religion that was caked on my heart. My first module (a three week class focusing on one particular subject) was called Way of Intimacy which was amazing. I began to see God in a new light as I learned that He delights over me, that when I say "yes" to Him in my heart it's enough for Him. When I say "yes", He smiles and is so happy. That class just really hammered out the thought that I had to be right before I tried to come into communion with God, which had prevented me from coming to Him so many times before. We focused alot on the Song of Solomon which I encourage you to study in the light that Jesus is our lover and we are His beloved. It was just a continuance of Jesus showing me how much He loves me, I still don't even know how much He loves me but He keeps sweeping me off my feet everyday and all I can say is I'm in love with Him. My next module was called Excellencies of Christ which was again so amazing. I had just recently read through the Gospels right before the module and so I was all familiar with the life of Jesus, but I really had no idea what I didn't know. This class brought me so much closer to a fuller understanding of how great Christ really is, the power of His cross and resurrection, and the redemption that is found through Him. In this class we saw a number of healings and salvations, God loves to fascinate us more than we know! Right now I get excited thinking about it, I just want to go meditate on His goodness all over again!! So now I am in my third module, hard to believe because time flies by. This module is called Eschatology (end times) which has been very interesting and challenging so far. I have been deeply motivated and driven back to my purpose as a forerunner to proclaim the coming Lamb in these last days. Really it's been a drive to holiness and to walk in diligence so Christ finds His bride spotless and without blame. I'm through one week and I've just been driven to my knees and the word so many times.<br />So at the end of every module we have a week here at IHOP that is called Global Bridegroom Fast. The first three days of the week, everyone on the mission base (IHOP staff, students, and interns) fasts. This is a time where we cry out for our nation, lost souls, healing, other nations, abortion, and freedom, basically we do alot of interceding. I love this week, God refocuses me in that I can still be a sponge soaking Him up but I also need to contend on behalf of other people. <br />I also want to share a few testimonies as well, wow this is going to be long but it's hard to keep things short when your talking about the goodness of our Lord! So recently I was praying for healing over a person while in the prayer room and I felt the Holy Spirit challenge me in my belief for whether or not God would really heal this person. So I held onto the fact that He wants their healing more than I ever could and just spoke that over that person. So a few weeks ago, I along with a few other girls, prayed over this girl in the prayer room who had stomach pains and delt with depression. The next week she came in and told us that she was completely healed! That very night I prayed over a girl who had gotten in a wreck which was causing her neck and back pains and when we were done praying for her, she was healed and free of pain! Wow the Lord is so amazing, He simply has more zeal to heal than we do and when we get a hold of believing that His word is more true than the situation around us, He moves!<br />I want to ask you all if there is anything at any time you would like me to be in prayer for you about, please email me and let me know. God has shown me how I move heaven and earth when I pray and I want Him to show you that as well, so let me agree with you in whatever there is in your lives! I love you all and am so excited to for what God is doing right now!</span>Torrehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17297503361850543068noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4092005113912010968.post-55598548525124118442007-10-21T09:49:00.000-07:002007-10-21T10:01:12.684-07:00My Blog<span style="font-family: arial;">Hi all!! So here is my new blog, I am going to use this to keep you all updated on what is going on in my life. I will try to post something up every week for you all to read. Most of it will be stuff that God has shown me or is doing in my life, testimonies and stuff like that. I think I might try and do a new post towards the weekend of every week so if you want to keep up all you would have to do is check my blog on a Monday and there should be a new post on here. I'm still trying to figure out how exactly I'm going to do all of this so I apologize if I am a little inconsistent at first.<br />So a quick update, things are going great! This last week was my first week back in school after my fall break and I was really glad to be back. I love it here and God is constantly doing stuff in my life. I will post a more in depth blog here in a bit. For now, I hope you all are doing wonderful and you are all in my prayers.<br /></span>Torrehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17297503361850543068noreply@blogger.com0